I keep listening to "Rock & Roll Fantasy" by Bad Company. Such an awesome song. It's one of those songs that puts me in a strange mood, much like when I listen to
The Offspring.
Today, I received the pre-ordered copies of Hangman SG, so I spent all evening printing out shipping labels, cutting out the inserts for the limited edition copies, and
packaging them up. I have about 12 more to package up, but it's getting late and I achieved nothing of what I wanted to do today. I need to get my other sites design up
and everything functional before these copies get delivered. Time is flying by so fast and everything is happening so quickly that I'm becoming very overwhelmed with everything.
After this past weekend, I realized I need to quit putting my life on hold for certain things to happen. I can't be waiting around with a cliffhanger, so I'm throwing down the
gloves and walking away. I have too many things I need to finish up and do before everything just passes me by. I try to do too much and end up getting caught up in the trivial
things and quit focusing on what matters most. Of course, that's a challenge since I don't always know what I should be focusing on.
I need to finish up the SQL courses and become certified. That will be my #1 priority after these packages get sent out. I slacked way too long, and now the time has come for me
to light the fire under my ass. After that, the next thing will be to finish the next game and then take a break from programming games for a short while. I also need to do some
website work for some friends as well, which won't take much of my time, and I also need to finish AirBlogger. I swear, it's 90% done, and I keep putting it off. It's time to start
listening to certain people who constantly tell me I'm not pushing myself to my full potential, and I'm starting to see the ill effects of that. I'm not sure what I'm afraid of more -
success or failure.
Earlier this week, maybe yesterday or Sunday, I decided that I'm going to start writing my entire life story on here. I don't plan on holding back any details either, so it should be
interesting to say the least. Nobody truly knows much about me, and I kept it that way for so long, that I forgot the reason why I don't let people in.
Right now there's so much shit running through my head that I want to just lay down with a set of headphones on, music blaring in my ears, and stare at the ceiling until I fall asleep.
My thoughts are so disorganized and my priorities are all fucked up, and I'm just starting to realize that. It's taken me far too long to realize this, so now it's time to start fixing
everything that I've messed up in the last 2 years (probably longer actually).
That's all for tonight. I'll this to the database tomorrow and add the last few entries to the RSS feed.
